Good Enough??

Yup I think that you're cute

You were at a floor event that we had today

I came down for a while to see what was going on and because one of my friends told me that I should

I saw you but I didn't say anything to you

I have seen you plenty of times before but when i saw you that day in the Roth lounge, something hit me

It was like a light bulb went off in my head and I saw that you are really attractive

But I know that I am no way in your league

Your smart and cute and have so much going for you

Above all you are a nerdy white boy(in a cute way)

I am the loud, black girl that is smart in some ways but not in others

You will NEVER look at me in that way so why must I even care?

I know that your league is so different from mine

You probably want a small white girl that's cute, smart, athletic and someone that you can show off to the world

I am none of that

I am a voluptuous, loud, funny, sarcastic, crazy, fun, caring girl

I wish that, that was enough for you

You probably don't even know that I exist

I'm just one of your friend's crazy friend that you see in passing

It's whatever, that's the story of my life

I'm always overlooked, just a friend or apparently not good enough to date

I'm use to it and my feelings get hurt for a while but than I get over it

My heart can take it....... Maybe.....

This is what I tell myself so that I can sleep at night

This is what I tell myself so that I don't think on it to much

This is what I tell myself so that I don't give up

These lies keep me going and I don't want to confront the truth of them

Will I ever be good enough for somebody?