College & Life

I am now staring down the barrel of gun that is seeming to going to assassinate me
I may or may not pass one of my courses that I need for my major which will drop my gpa and I will have to take it over again
Oh the joys of college that love to stress me out
This could potentially stop me from pursuing my dream of studying abroad and even going to grad school and getting into the right program
What did I get myself into too?
It always seems like I'm in this never ending hole that as soon as I get close to the top I am knocked back down and hit harder than before
I question my life, my major, my sanity, my well being, I question so much all the time
I use to be such a happy, carefree, stress free person and then I came to college and I swear it aged me a few years
Lord how do I get back to that place of such peace, such joy, such love, such laughter
I seem to have lost me along the way pursuing my goals
I want to come back to me and ultimately back to you
I feel as if I have gone so far and don't know how to get back
I look around and try to find you God but I feel as if you are hiding your face from me
Lord I NEED you
I can't do this without you, I can't go on without you and personally I don't want to go on without you
Oh God please be strong where I am weak and be my strong tower and be with me
I am so down and I need to get back up but where do I start?
Where do I go from here??