I have to admit

There is something that I have to admit
For so long I have tried to play it cool but now I can't deny the truth
I'm tired of being single
I've been single for over 2 years ever since I gave my life over to God
I decided that they next guy I wanted to date would be my husband but I never knew how hard the words would hut me
A lot of my close friends saved and unsaved have boyfriends that are actually good guys
Their falling in love and making plans for the future with their love
I'm making plans for the future by myself
I know that I have to wait and the right one will come along for me but that doesn't make it any easier
It's weird being single and having no guy even trying to pursue me
It makes me wonder about the way I look and why aren't guys attracted to me
Did I do something wrong that makes me so undesirable or is God shielding me until my time comes
I usually am very good at being strong and not worrying about a man but for some reason recently it has come up a lot
All of my older cousins are either married or are in good relationships and even some of my younger cousins are
It seems like I'm gonna be the old maid while they are happily in love
It hurts when I think about being alone for the rest of my life
That means I won't have kids or a life and a love to share with someone else
I have to be strong as usual but this time I need to be strong and honest with God and myself
I want a boyfriend, and I want a husband, I want a family!
I want to hold hands, kiss in the rain, take long walks, talk about everything, plan our life together, take awesome crazy adventures together
Whew! Now that I've got that out I feel better
I have to admit I'm waiting on God and it's in his timing  but I'm still human with human feelings and I will work through this!  
I just have to remember in God's Timing!