Future

Thinking about the future scares me
I started looking at grad schools and literally my heart started pounding
I am officially living my future
I mean I planned it for so long that know that it's here, it scares the crap out of me
Why must the future come so fast and be like a dark cloud over me
I want to do so many things but which of them is right
I want my masters in Psychology but maybe I should go all the way and get my Psy.D
Maybe I should make my concentration in Family and marriage therapy which is one of my minors
Well I have a minor in political science too and I like history and government
Maybe I should get both my masters in Psychology and Political Science
But that's a lot of money and time being spent
What would I actually do with the political science?
I mean with Psych I want to be a counselor
But Political Science was kind of sprung on me, this summer at a Youth Retreat
Am I doing the right thing??
Is this really where I am supposed to be at??
Am I making the right choices that align up with the will of God or am I working out of my own selfish ambitions?
So many things are bouncing around in my head and I don't know what to do with all of them
I want them to make sense but the more that I try and make sense of them, the more confusing they get
I want to be an ambitious person and go for what I want
But at the same time I'm scared and want to run away from it all
Why must making decisions and life be so hard?
God please make sense of what is going on in my head and point me into the direction that I should go and the grad school that would be right for me??
I don't want to stop thinking about the future but everytime it scares me.. Why must the future be so scary and unpredictable??