Waiting

Waiting
Such an easy word yet such a hard thing to do
It seems like whenever I decide to wait 50 things happen to make it even harder
In waiting I tend to get impatient because it's not happening when I want it to
I say that I'm waiting on God but yet I try to do things in my own power
Doing things in my own power never worked out for me and yet my mind still continues to want too
Waiting is apart of the commitment that I made to God to wait for my future husband
It goes good at first and I'm very strong in that belief
Then something happens and it seems like the waiting seems not even worth it
I see all the happy couples, the people getting married, the people falling in love and I think where's mines
Then I start to second guess myself and maybe that waiting on God isn't worth it
That lasts for sometime but in my spirit and in my heart I know that God will take care of me
When it's my time to date it will come, when it's my time to fall in love it will happen
Right now just isn't the time so I have to wait and be patient and stop letting my mind get me and the people around me that say I should be dating by now, ignore them
The 1 that is for me will show up in God's timing and not my own
I would rather it happen in God's timing and not my own because my time sucks
God knows what I need and not what I want
I would so rather have what I need rather than what I want
"Seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these shall be added to you" Matthew 6:33
"A man that findeth a wife, findeth a good thing" Proverbs 18:22
The one for me will find me and I shall be found doing my father's business!
Until that time I shall wait.....