Just don't know

Sometimes I don't know whether I'm being forgiving or just plain naive. Yeah I came home for break and had a great time and then I talked to you while I was home. I forgave you for all the wrong you did to me and know just wanted to try friendship, it's failed times before now but I still wanted to try. Of course just trying to be the nice person I let you in again and again you let me down. Why does it seem that I have to be so stupid, to think with my heart instead of my head and my spirit. My heart keeps saying give another chance but my head is telling me that you've been down this road before. I'm tired of people disappointing me and taking me for granted. Just because I help people does not mean I don't myself have a desire to be loved, and cared for and adored and just not overlooked. Why must I be overlooked by so many people. They think they know me or see who I really am but the sad part is that half of the people that think they know me don't know even half of the things about me. God please just help me on this bumpy road that seems to have been going on for so long. I want to forgive and get over stuff but also now be naive to who people really are.