Friendzone

Welcome to my life in the Friend zone

Every time I think that I think I may make my way out somebody puts me back in

I can't help my personality and how chill I am

I grew up with males so I'm not like a lot of girls

So that seems to designate me to the friend zone

What am I doing wrong?

I can't help my personality and the way that I am

I am who I am and I can't and won't change that

I'm sick of the friend zone and whoever created it is a terrible person

Will I ever make it out of this terrible zone?

I'm not invisible or want to be alone forever

Somebody please get me out of the friend zone!

My Thoughts for Today

my brain knows just who to choose to like

Its always the people that are way out of my league

What can I do about this?

I know that I have no chance but yet there is still something inside of me that believes

I know that it is stupid of me to believe this but yet it is still there

Why do I torture myself this way

I try to make it go away but as soon as I try than something crosses my mind that makes me smile and keep hope alive

3 and a half years since I been in a relationship

I see the people around me and I want what they have

Someone to have, hold, care for, someone to care for me and love me

Someone who will be true and not just come into my life to use me

I've been used enough to know that, that is never a fun idea

But what can I do when I will never be noticed or considered?

I wonder what I am doing wrong but I can't seem to find it

It may not be my time but when will it be my time

When is it my turn?

I hate to sound like I'm whining but this is how I'm feeling today

I know what I want but I can't have that right now

I just have to be patient!!!!

Am i pretty enough?

Am I good enough?

3 and a half years just keeps looming over my head and it doesn't seem to be getting any better..........

How life changed

My relationship with God is one of the greatest things that has ever happened to me

The day that I accepted him into my life was the day that my life changed forever

He picked me up, dusted me off and showed me that there was so much more to life than

Partying, Boys, fake friends and trying to distract myself from the life that I has surrounded myself with

He showed me that he had a plan for me that was ever greater than me

He showed me a love that I couldn't even contain

I am his daughter, his princess, that apple of his eye and he desired to heal me, set me free and go on this journey called life with me

That is a day I will never forget and that was the day that I started being the woman that I was called to be and not the woman that people expected me to be

I wouldn't trade that day for anything in the world

I love God withe everything that is in me,

With all of my heart, mind and soul, I am his and he is mine

No greater love have I ever received than the love of my father God

Even when I fall, when I stumble, when I run away from him

He still holds me close and lets me know that he is always here and no matter what the situation is that he is there through everything

He is not like people fickle and changing but he is the same yesterday, today and forever more

How can you not love someone that loved you first and desired you before you knew who he was

He hung on the cross until death because he looked across time and saw that I would need saving and a savior

I thank him for his great love

What greater love than a man who would lay down his life for a friend

I am in love with the greatest man that ever walked this earth

I know that no matter how hard life gets and even if thing don't make sense that I love him and I trust him

My faith, hope, love and strength in him will get me through those tough times.

Jesus is THE BEST thing that ever happened to me!

Thinking of you

I met you two years ago to a bible study that I just happen to have gone too

Then I see you again at my grandmother's church for 2 Sundays in a row

I ended up at my grandmother's church because my church didn't have service for Christmas or New Year's Day

That has never happened to me and I have been going to the same church since I was 6 years old

Then I come to youth group with my friend and your teaching the bible study

You are such an awesome man of God

When you speak your heart for God truly comes out whether it's in seriousness or with jokes

I really liked that

I mean besides the fact that you are EXTREMELY attractive, tall, built, nice, sweet, funny, caring, outgoing and nice

The way that you love God is the most attractive thing of all

You talked to me and you were very nice and I'm glad that you took a genuine interest

But of course you were just being friendly

Ever since than I catch myself thinking of you throughout the day

Just little thoughts that will pop up and make me smile throughout my day

But I am no way in your league

First of all you are 24 and I'm 19

You've graduated college and I'm just on my second year of college

You have an established job, I clean at my school

You travel and do football, I do nothing exciting like that

You probably want a girl that is in your own age range and I am no where near that

I am mature for my age because God has given me a great spirit of wisdom but you don't know that since you only really met me twice

I think about this chance encounter but I know that it probably means nothing but a girl can wish can't she

I guess if it's meant to be than God will make a way and if not you will just be another guy that I had a crush on but becomes a part of my past

I can only wish and hope that you think of me and when you do that they are pleasant thoughts that bring a smile to my face as they do mine.

Other than that it's just a wish......

Why I hate religion but Love Jesus

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1IAhDGYlpqY

This video shows the truth of who God is and how the church shouldn't be run by religion but by God's grace, mercy and love. He is a wonderful counselor a loving God and we should be representations of him and not what this world is!

My life as of now

How many people do I like/am attracted to right now?

2 and a possible

1 white boy, 1 boy from another church and the other one is just sexual attraction(which is not cool)

Guess how many people like me, NONE!

Oh Joy! -________-

Welcome to the land of the single for 3 years.

What am I doing wrong?!?!

It's Hard

It's Hard to be around all the people that are falling in love

I mean it's cute to see them fall in love and begin to move forward in their lives

But it's hard when you have been single for 3 years and have no perspective people in your life

I know that things will come in due time but it's still hard to sit and act like it doesn't affect me

It gets hard to know that I am about to be 20 years old and there is no one that even likes me

I feel like my personality scares a lot of people off but I don't mean too

It's just that I am a very bold, outgoing, crazy person that just loves life and tries to find the joy in everything

But that shouldn't scare people off

I know that you may see all of that on the outside but you have to look at the inside too

I am a sensitive, caring, loving, gentle person and I wish that someone could see that

Why must I be overlooked all the time?

I am just the crazy girl that everyone knows that counsels people and is like a mother because God has blessed me with a spirit of wisdom

I often wonder what am I doing wrong that is leaving me in the dust with relationships

What is so wrong with me that I can't get anyone who wants to stay in my life and love me for just being me and not what I can do for them

What am I doing wrong, What is wrong with me?

I am waiting on God but I still pose the question, What is wrong with me that I have been single for years?

What am I doing wrong that is making me repel men and make others just want sex, friends with benefits or just use me to get to one of my friends?

It's so hard to have to pretend that nothing is wrong when on the inside my heart wants someone that is just for me

I want all the cute relationship things and have a real Godly man that sees me as more than just a ''good friend'', counselor, crazy black woman

There is more to me I promise, if you just look inside of me and see my heart

It's big and open for love, passion, care and compassion

I have so much love to give if the right person would come along
It's so hard to see all the people I know getting married, engaged or starting serious relationships when your still by yourself

I just have to deal with it but that doesn't necessarily make it any easier

Why must it be so hard?

Why can't I be like some people and not think about relationships or future things?

Why can't I just not worry about it or think about it

It's hard, no matter what I seem to do

It's so hard