My Thoughts for Today

my brain knows just who to choose to like

Its always the people that are way out of my league

What can I do about this?

I know that I have no chance but yet there is still something inside of me that believes

I know that it is stupid of me to believe this but yet it is still there

Why do I torture myself this way

I try to make it go away but as soon as I try than something crosses my mind that makes me smile and keep hope alive

3 and a half years since I been in a relationship

I see the people around me and I want what they have

Someone to have, hold, care for, someone to care for me and love me

Someone who will be true and not just come into my life to use me

I've been used enough to know that, that is never a fun idea

But what can I do when I will never be noticed or considered?

I wonder what I am doing wrong but I can't seem to find it

It may not be my time but when will it be my time

When is it my turn?

I hate to sound like I'm whining but this is how I'm feeling today

I know what I want but I can't have that right now

I just have to be patient!!!!

Am i pretty enough?

Am I good enough?

3 and a half years just keeps looming over my head and it doesn't seem to be getting any better..........