Special Someone

I want that special someone to hold me close

I want to smell that special cologne that he wears

I want to feel like this is what I've been waiting on

I want to feel your hands intertwined with mine

I want you to wrap your arms around me and hold me like you'll never let go

I want you to look at me and in your eyes I can see our future

I want you to kiss me on the forehead and I can feel the way you care for me

I want to know that you will never leave me and that you see your future with me

I want to not be afraid to love you

I want to feel like I can be comfortable with you and not afraid to be vulnerable

I want you to show me that you are different from the rest

I want to feel like the wait has been worth it all this time

I want to know that you love me and I Love you!

I want this to be forever

I want to be able to trust you with everything

I want us to have a family, and kids and build a life together

I just want a FUTURE that includes that special someone

Taylor Swift Here you come again

Here you come again
Just when I've begun
To get myself together
You waltz right in the door
Just like you've done before
And wrap my heart
'Round your little finger
Here you come again
Just when I'm about
To make it work without you

You look into my eyes
And light those dreamy eyes
And pretty soon I'm wonderin'
How I came to doubt you
All you gotta do
Is smile that smile
And there go all my defenses
Just leave it up to you
And in a little while
You're messin' up my mind
And fillin' up my senses


Here you come again
Lookin' better than a body
Has a right to
And shakin' me up so
That all I really know
Is here you come again

All you gotta do
Is smile that smile
And there go all my defenses
Just leave it up to you
And in a little while
You're messin' up my mind
And fillin' up my senses

Here you come again
Lookin' better than a body
Has a right to
And shakin' me up so
That all I really know
Is here you come again
Here I go
And here you come again
Here I go

I just want to hold you close
I just want to smell the strong scent that you wear
I want you to hold me close and feel your heart beat
I want you to kiss me on the forehead and make me feel special
I want to feel you chest rise and fall as you breath
I want to lay in your bed next to you
I want you to pull me close and make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world
I want you to hold me tight and make me feel safe
I want you to tell me your dreams
Tell me what places you want to see
Tell me about your family
Tell me all your secrets
Tell me the truth about everything
It is you that I want and you that I want to understand
What are you hiding behind that exterior of yours?
I want to know much more about you
I want to gaze into your eyes and feel the fire and desire
I want to feel the stroke of your hand against my back
I want to feel you warm hands intertwine with mine
I want to feel you lips pressed against me in a dance of the time
I just want you to be mine :)

My past year

So much has happened in this past year in my life
I have grown closer to God in so many ways
I got baptized in the niagara river
I started my first semester of college
I became a Psychology major something I never thought that I would do
I've met awesome friends that love me just for being me
I've learned to let things go
I've learned to not be afraid of who I am or change who I am for people
I'm not afraid to open up to people and let them see who I truly am
I want to get deeper friendships and not be afraid of them not accepting me for who I am
I have been shown God's love in so many ways
I have learned that its ok for my world to fall apart sometimes
Its ok for me to make mistakes and know that I'm not perfect
Im going to be a girl sometimes with stupid emotions and stuff
Im going to mess up and say and do the wrong thing but that doesn't make me a bad person
It makes me human
It makes me a growing young woman
It makes me a person with real feelings
It makes me not to be invincible or intimidating
It makes me stronger
It makes me not afraid of who I truly am
It makes me be a better ME! <3

Today

Today I won't be afraid to open up

Today I won't let my past determine my future 

Today I won't let the sight of you change me

Today I will let myself just enjoy life 

Today I will not be afraid to move out of my comfort zone 

Today I will just take things as they are

Today I'm not afraid to do things differently

Today I won't be afraid to be who I am

Today I won't be afraid to tell you how I've felt for 2 semesters now

Today...Well maybe not tell you yet but think about telling you :)